Roller Blader or Out Of Control Freight Train?

The was felt crisp and I was nervous as we entered. The lady handing me my ticket seemed pleasant enough and $3 admission seemed like a steal. Seeing a group of friends I made my way over to them and got the conversation started.
"Hey man. What are you doing here I thought you and Jill couldn't come?" I asked in an excited voice.
"Yeah well Zach was able to give us a ride. I told you I was pretty sure I'd be able to come." He answered me in his usual spastic voice. "Hey check out my new hat" He points up to a checker patterned fedora "what do you think?"
Pretending to show interest I said "Yeah, thats really cool where'd you get it."
The conversation continued on like this until slowly the floor got filled with the thud of skates and blades hitting the ground. The main lights began to dim as the black lights kicked into high gear and the music was slowly turned up. Steadily the floor gets filled with young and old, new and experienced skaters and plenty of wipeouts to enjoy. 

Well, Arnt I Just a Big Poster Now

Yes us I have officially reached a 50 post milestone. My life is sort of turning into turmoil as I just told the girl of my dreams how I feel about her and she has yet to respond. So until she responds (o yeah i told her via text because im not even enough of a man to tell her to her face or even call) Anyways to those who still read the nonsense and piece of crap writing I put up here I appreciate and while I may be slow posts will always keep coming.

Thanks Readers,
Love Ben

Have A Good One!

Superbowl Night Rewind

So lets take a trip to last night. By far one of the most epic nights of my short life. Traveling to a friends house to watch the superbowl. We get there and ok so first heres names...Names changed for safety. Me (Me) Luke (1/2 black, driver) Winona (really pretty girls whose house were at) Dalia (Winonas best friend whos like my older sister) Jaclyn (our friend. cute girl) John (short kid. all of our friend) So this is a group of people where we have a ton of fun and were all friends.

So me and luke get their and the girls were upstairs in Winonas room just talking. The door was slightly open and we wernt sure if they were changing. So we pushed it in fast and they screamed so we pulled away because we assumed they were changing...they wernt and just freaked out haha. we laughed. I ended up getting my hair put up with mini clips and luke got a du rag with a market basket bag. About that time John showed up. and things just got more violent from there. We got called down for food and the girls dissapeared after that. We couldnt find them anywhere. Turns out they were just talking in the bathroom. So we ran upstairs to hide in Winonas room and scare them. But we thought we heard them coming so ran into the attic. Being guys me and john started throwing massively oversized kickballs at eachother and had alot of fun.

Daze Dream (part IV 2/2)

The BMW pulled silently into an abandoned warehouse and Derek and Theresa disappear. 


Two days after my accident. My parents had been by to see me and pretty much never left my side at all. My mothers Victoria's Secret perfume still lingered in the air. The doctors patched me up the best they could. Ribs still hurt but starting to heal. My leg was all casted up and bandages surrounding every inch of my body it felt like. The police, well some seriously high ranking officer judged by the Gucci suit and matching shoes, stopped by and questioned me. Not so much a question but drilled me as too why I'm doing drugs. He refused to except my explanation and said the morphine wasn't making me think properly and too call him when I felt better. This was his card.


Anthony Dior. Executive Assistant @ Jackson Trust. 261-037-5528. 


This was the weirdest experience in those couple of days. I searched his name and no hits online and no bank called Jackson Trust. Even the phone number routed me to the operator. Clearly my normal seventeen year old life was about to change, but I had no idea what was in store for the future. 

Insomnia...You Suck!

Ive been going through a phase (the last like 8 months) where i go to bed usually after 1am. I realized my body got REALLY adaptive to this. Tonight, I tried going to sleep at 7:30 because I was totally beat. And hey guess what? I woke up at 2::05am. My whole sleep through the night to catch up on sleep plan really backfired. So I'm going to give everyone a little piece of advice. DO NOT stay up till 2am everynight. I so regret doing that and I now have to fight my body to get back to sleep. Not a very fun. Not a very informative woohooo! post. But im tired and going back to sleep 8) Gnight peeps.


Have A Good One!

Forever We Breath

I sat and watched two lovers walking on the beach. The sun setting on a warm summer night. I feel the breeze graze my cheek and the soft spray of sea salt from my seasoned beach chair. The wood worn down and scraped from use and scratches against sand and concrete. I remember a time, back around 93' when I bore my first child that everything seemed so right. We, my wife Heather and myself named him Matthew. It means "Gift of God." This precious child blossomed to becoming a strong and tall well rounded teenager. He was, in our eyes perfect, until his mother died when he was 11. This hit us both. A runaway drunk swerved into the oncoming lane, and when his mother got out of the car, he shot her and then himself. Matt has never been the same since. This probably the biggest reason why he took so many pills. I was there with him in the hospital every time he had an overdose, but his body only last so long before he died last year. 
So Now I sit on the beach twice a week. I remember the beautiful lives lost. This intertwined fate that led to Matt killing himself. Its been hard on me and my brain will never be able to process it all. We sit tonight and breath, each one us, another breath, and another. Take time in life and be respectful to others. Hold a door, say please and thank you. Because you never know when time will hand you another letter saying your wife and son have taken your last breath. Because they hold your breath, and control your life. You do it for undying love and devotion. A hope of a new world! So just remember Forever We Breath.


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Have A Good Night Friends!